The Playlist
Have you ever noticed that we typically listen to the music that matches our mood? When we’re feeling good, we want more upbeat songs. When we’re feeling sad and low, the song will often match. I think it’s safe to say that most of us use music as a release of emotion; it confirms how we’re feeling. Boppy tunes confirm that I’m feeling more positive about life. Depressing songs confirm that I feel like a pile of shit.
As you can imagine, I’ve accumulated quite the song collection since Zoey has died, with music to suit days when I can feel the sunshine to times when I’m in the darkest hole possible. These songs have accompanied me while I’ve driven around aimlessly, unsure where I was headed. They’ve muffled my crying in the shower, one of the few places I could really release my devastation without scaring my living children. They’ve sung to me in meditation, trying to quiet my mind from all that is running through it. They’ve comforted my soul, assuring me that one day I will rise again.
Have a listen, add some to your own playlist. There is a whole mashup of genres here, to suit every style, every need, every preference. Some don’t even make sense in terms of relating to grief, but there was something in their tune that drew me in. There are some that I would sing along to while I was pregnant with Zoey, and others that were sung to her by hospital volunteers. There’s even a few that have even been playing on the radio, at the exact time I needed them, as if by divine intervention. I sing them to Zoey, I sing them to myself, I sing them to God. And while several of the songs are clearly more love based, the tune and overall feel, perhaps even some of the lyrics, still apply to grief. After all, grief is just immense love with no place to go and no one to go to. Enjoy.
Pam xo
“Angel” - Jon Secada
”Call on Me (Ryan Riback Remix)” - Starley
”Elysium” - Yvonne S. Moriarty (from the Gladiator soundtrack)
”Fix You” - Coldplay
”Follow You Follow Me” - Vapor
”From Now On” - Hugh Jackman (The Greatest Showman Soundtrack)
”Good Mother” - Jann Arden
”i can’t breathe” - Bea Miller
”I Believe” - Christina Perri
”I Got You” - Olivia Lunny
”I Like Me Better” - Lauv
”Just Another Day” - Jon Secada
”Lovely” - Billie Eilish & Khalid
”Moment 4 Life” - Nicki Minaj ft. Drake
”No Regrets” - MAGIC!
”Now We Are Free” - Lisa Gerrard (The Gladiator Soundtrack)
”Otherside” - Beyonce
”Over the Rainbow” - Israel Kamakawiwo’ole
”Shallow” - Lady Gaga & Bradley Cooper
”The Sound Of” - Jann Arden
”Still Falling for You” - Ellie Goulding
”This Is Me” - Keala Settle (The Greatest Showman Soundtrack)
”True Colours” - Anna Kendrick & Justin Timberlake (Trolls Soundtrack)
”when the party’s over” - Billie Eilish
”Beam Me Up” - P!nk
”Brave” - Don Diablo & Jessie J
”A Drop in the Ocean” - Ron Pope
”Faded” - Alan Walker
”Higher Love” - Kygo & Whitney Houston
”In My Blood” - Shawn Mendes
”Love Me Now” - John Legend
”LOVE. (FEAT. ZACARI.)” - Kendrick Lamar
”The Next Right Thing” - Kristen Bell (Frozen II soundtrack)
”Our Story (Radio Edit)” - Mako
”Rescue” - Lauren Daigle
”Risk” - Metric
”Show Yourself” - Idina Menzel & Evan Rachel Wood (Frozen II Soundtrack)
”This Love” - Taylor Swift
”Walk Me Home” - P!nk
”Who Do You Love” - Marianas Trench
”10,000 Reasons” - Anthem Lights
”Aad Guray Nameh” - Jai-Jagdeesh
”Hallelujah” - Jai-Jagdeesh
”Two of Us (Acoustic)” - Louis Tomlinson
”Broken & Beautiful)” - Kelly Clarkson (Ugly Dolls Soundtrack)
”My Love is Your Love” - Whitney Houston
”Painter” - Lapsley
”Rise Up” - Andra Day
”Without You” - Avicii
”XO” - Beyonce
”everything i wanted” - Billie Eilish
”Silence (feat. Khalid)” - Marshmello
”Til It Happens To You” - Lady Gaga
”Better Day (feat. Aloe Blacc)” - Young Bombs
”I’ll Never Love Again” - Lady Gaga & Bradley Cooper (Shallow Soundtrack)
”Warrior Heart” - Shawnee
”So Will I (100 Billion X)” - Hillsong UNITED
”Surrender” - Natalie Taylor
”I Dare You” - Kelly Clarkson
”I Try” - Jasmine Thompson
”You Say” - Lauren Daigle
Any that you would add? Check out the Spotify playlist here:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/41YnZOTo74k6Mx5Ho8BAOr?si=oE3tEiPtQnCMgIFhcuY8Mw